For anyone who doesn’t already know, I’d just like to take the time to say this right now: Ballet is hard. Like, really hard. And I don’t mean deciding between Froyo World and Orange Leaf hard, I mean sweating through multiple layers, bloody toepads, and collapsing on the couch immediately upon returning home every day hard. But just when you thought the challenges were purely physical, you find yourself battling those dreadful little shadows of depression creeping into your brain. Ballet is based on the pursuit of technical and artistic perfection, two things that are actually impossible. Yet we work tirelessly day in and day out to achieve these unattainable goals, consequently setting ourselves up for failure. No wonder we can so easily become depressed…
When you are injured, this pursuit of perfection does not cease- at least not mentally. Physically, you are handicapped, but mentally you continue the fight. Your life becomes a constant internal self-interrogation…what could I have done differently to prevent this? How do I heal? Which rehearsals am I missing? Will I be better in time to perform? It goes on and on. With your mind racing a mile a minute but your body stuck in a rut, frustration is almost expected. But it shouldn’t be mandatory, should it? So how do you stamp out those mind-dwelling flames of self doubt and worry? Everyone has a different method. For me, there is nothing like getting out in the sun for at least 10 minutes, talking to my mom, having a bite (or 5) of a giant oatmeal raisin cookie, and dropping by the studio to see my friends. And when all that fails, fresh flowers, wine, a trip to the RedBox and a night in with my boyfriend is always a winning combination! It’s all about the healing powers, people! Send me your good vibes!
well said…the power of positive thinking…oh yeah, and sunshine! works every time :) love you little dancer xoxo
Wonderful insight! You are right, it is so important to find those people and things that help us cope. I am glad you have found so many great ways to lift your spirits. It is a message that will help others who might also be going through some tough times. Just to let you know that there are so many of us out here, who appreciate your art, your hard work and sacrifice! Thank you for sharing and I will send positive thoughts your way for continued healing so that you can return to your art, your dance! from Sue
Thank you so much, Sue!!
O. M. G. Is that Yellowtail??????? My favorite wine? “Did we just become best friends?! Do you want to do karate in the garage?!?!”
Oh yeah – I am definitely sending you the good vibes. We are all with you. :)
Heal well and keep the spirit!